confession:

I bleached my mustache today.
Haha it seems like such a funny thing to do but I'm glad I did it. I know that nobody else ever noticed it and it was probably all in my head, but I'm still glad I did it. Makes me feel better. I'm really working on improving my overall appearance, it makes me want to eat less and work out more. It's so easy to just throw on jeans and a sweatshirt and not care what I look like, and that makes me not care what I eat. Does that make sense? I'm spending a lot of time choosing clothes, doing makeup, fixing my hair... I feel better when I look better, and I know I'd look even better if I was thinner. I haven't been counting calories the past few days since I've had a cold and was focusing on getting healthy, so I've definitely gained weight but I have a good feeling about how this week will go. I'm working tomorrow so I will be far away from my kitchen and all its food, and I'm babysitting on Tuesday night so I won't have to eat dinner at all! I'm excited for that. I have a good feeling about this week.



Watched Moon tonight. LOVE. I love Sam Rockwell.

Things I Ate Today
green tea
coffee + biscotti (dipping biscotti in coffee is amazing when I'm craving dessert, nonni's original biscotti is 90 calories, it's like having my favorite part of tiramisu!)
beef stew (I wish I knew how many calories were in it. It was extra lean stew meat and mostly vegetables and I didn't have a biscuit or anything with it... so I'm trying not to dwell on it.)

So yeah, I've been slacking off on keeping exact track of calories, but I am going to be way better this week. Nothing but dinner tomorrow, and hopefully nothing at all the day after that. Feeling good.